Hi! Hello!
My vibrations are a little strange this week to be honest. It looks like a great time to write a lot of words for the public to read!
I am indeed here for two reasons:
- Lately, I have discovered that the small chats in my life have been alive. Usually, I don’t even know I need it, but after I have the chance to connect with someone – even for a fast text exchange or an entrance chat, suddenly things start clicking again and I feel more like me.
- I have been a little blocked lately, wise with food and wise life. Omug the weather – can we do that? I only have a kind of soft blams, and one of the best ways to know how to go through this is to be real in this regard. It’s okay to have the blah. I have been here before. The sun will shine again!
So today we make the Internet version of a side chat! Go next to me at home, we stop telling you, I welcome your dog and I ask how your children are and if you travel anywhere for spring break and from a time we talk about anxiety and separation!
It’s a coffee meeting.
Sick children, restless mother.
This week on Instagram I shared that our children were sick and had a real effect on my nervous system. When they are not doing well, I am very restless.
The disease was very regular. It runs cough, fever, ear infections and sleepless nights. But my nervous system is facing all these symptoms as if at any time I need to call the ambulance. Which, to be correct, I could! You never know and I mean it seriously, and this is the problem for me.
That hypervigilance, above that I was sick and slept half a night in my daughter’s little daughter bed all week, has tired me so tired lately.
And what really surprised me is that I heard from many of you this week who said you felt that.
Not only the sick children at home, but the anxiety that goes with her. I heard this from real -life friends and friends on the Internet. A summary of what I have heard from you:
- You feel restless because your babies are crying, but I can’t explain what is wrong.
- Do you strive to decide – is my baby okay? Do we have to go to the clinic? Er? what to do?
- You have no children, but who feel a high level of anxiety with pets, which can also not explain what is not right.
- Your children are raised, but you still feel the same anxiety when your children get sick in the 20s or 30s. Because once a mother, always a mother.
- You are professionals in the medical field – you have heard this from several people! – And your job is to see sick children all day, but you are still impatient for your own children to be sick. (Which, honestly, is a bit of bubbles because I would prefer to keep the thought in my mind that you are all untouchable heroes who have no fears and know the answers to everything!)
In our story, I know that some of my personal anxieties are worsened by the past medical traumas – having experiences in which things were to be good and then they were not good at all. I know many of you have had similar experiences.
Is it a downer? It could be a downer! Welcome to my brain in March!
Maybe I will report when I realize how not to get the nervous shaking when the thermometer reads “103.5” or struggling for my life with an increase in adrenaline at every middle of the coughing night. Or … maybe I will make my way through the rest of my life. If you know the secret, do not hesitate to transmit it.
It was really sweet for my heart to hear from many of you this week and it really made me feel less lonely and less strange. Thank you.
What I cooked
I made these chicken bowls almost once a week in January, because I am in love with that cilantro pesto there.
Also, a heavy amount of berries and cupcakes for carrot cake (soon – I want it to be just right), box with cottage cheese, this sweet potato soup and a lot of buffalo chicken.
But also a kind of cooking routine.
Meh. This must be quite normal, even for people who like to cook.
No ideas or interest are missing; I have so Many things that sound fun to try and hundreds of recipe ideas that float in my head.
I think they are missing only in time, space and energy to execute them well.
Normal life-long life requirements, school, doctor appointments, work, cleaning, eat enough proteins and lifts weights, etc. have felt a little more consuming in the last 2-3 months. There is no perfectly ordered and clear space on the day of making a beautiful dinner as I want or, maybe I’m just tired and it seems challenging to create that space.
What I really like in the routine, and that slight feeling of blocking is that I feel a new sauce series that comes to life! I’m not just saying it is positive – I really like it when my real life leads to me to try to find solutions to problems that I think we all feel from time to time. And from here I work right now.
SOS recipes are my bread and butter. My favorites. My most real life. I was a little blocked, but he pushed me in a very good direction and I am delighted with what is coming. Probably I will launch this newly established in April / May! Stay tuned.
The little joy of the television
Boys, I love TV right now. Especially when associated with a cookie only two-huge-cookies.
Our girls are in a season of life in which bed is quite consistent, we have no sports or night activities or events. Bjork and I almost always look at an hour of TV together at the end of the night, and the session on the couch, in my jams, at 21:00, ready to watch a show together is one of my happiest places.
I have a personal rule that intense or graphic shows cannot be followed – you see the previous discussion about anxiety – so my favorite shows are right on the interesting, captivating, little thrilling, but nothing too violent or scary to keep me at night.
Current faves, in order of winning the most cheesy and loving:
- separation
- White lotus
- Survivor
- Amazing race
- Occasional license
Honestly, separation could be some of the best TVs I have ever watched. It is intelligent and complex and slightly creepy and strange in a wonderful way. And so beautiful! Cinematography! I could talk about this show for a long time.
May God bless the fun TV and those who do it. It was one of my little joys lately.
Solvi says
I usually do a wisdom in these coffee data posts, but this month I have a truly moving lesson from my daughter Solvi. She wants to know:
The way you are done is the way I like it.
Do you feel behind? Fight with bussing? As if you could do better? (I!)
Guess what – the people who love you are so glad you are in their lives. The way you are done is the way they like. Pets, children, parents, partners and husband and friends. They do not think of your areas for improvements – they think about how much I love when you laugh, how much they want to go to play in the park with you and how well they feel when they hug you. I love you the same as you are now.
Be nice to you. Being human is hard. You’re doing great.
Thank you for being here.
If you are here, you are probably receiving our E -our messs or follows on Instagram or simply check. Thank you – your real, human touch, on this corner of the Internet, is what makes this place happy for me.
I hope you feel loved today!
And if you are an uneasy mother when your children are sick … and me! XO
